Hormones...you are stupid and you suck!

Today was a good day for the most part. I didn't have any trouble with my food. I have the Jillian Michaels Master your Metabolism book to thank for that though. After losing my freakin' mind a little and sabotaging all of my previous efforts this year, I decided that I can't be trusted to make healthy food choices right now. I just need to get myself back in the right mindset and until I'm there, I shouldn't be left to my own devices. This is coming from someone who has a tendency to graze. I don't gorge myself or anything. But, if I'm hungry and I don't already have a meal planned and ready to go, I'll open the fridge and grab a string cheese, then I'll go to the pantry and grab some crackers, a couple dates, maybe a slice of bread with almond butter and jam, then I'll realize I'm thirsty and get some milk. Next thing you know, I ate 400 calories and I'm still hungry. That is such a recipe for destruction and I'm the master destroyer.

So, I pulled out my copy of Jillian's book remembering that there was a complete menu for 2 weeks including recipes. I decided that I'll follow her 2 week menu plan so no decisions are left up to me and if all goes well, I should be ready to take the reigns myself by the time it's over.

Here, I took a couple pictures of the meal plan pages from my book. Use it for ideas yourself or at least it's accountability for me to eat what I'm suppose to eat for the next 10 days.

I'm determined to break this stupid cycle I'm in. I'm great for 3 weeks then I sabotage myself undoing everything I've worked so hard for. Part of it I think is hormones. I'm sorry but some of us have nasty PMS or even PMDD. This cannot be denied so don't try. Until you (men) can figure out how to bleed for 4-7 days straight and live to tell about it, shut up and deal with it. I hate it when men think we just pull the PMS card when we don't want to do something or we want sympathy. I'm sure there are some women that do use it and abuse it...unfortunately. But there are those of us that really don't have any control and when it happens, it knocks us on our asses and we end up ruining our lives in one way or another in one week's time then wake up when it's all over to clean up what's left of it. Okay sorry...got a little side tracked. I'm all done now. :)

So I know that some of my problem is hormones. What can I do about it? I no longer have any additional hormones regulating my moods or monthly stupids so that's one problem. It was suggested that I see a naturopath for different ideas to help combat the stupids with something not medicinal. I don't know...maybe. Then yesterday, it was suggested that I restrict some things from my diet during that time like pastas and breads and things like that. My response: Are you @#$%! crazy? If I had that kind of control, I wouldn't have this !@# ^%# problem in the first @$#&^# place.

They then responded with yet another wonderful idea. How about sticking my face in a sink full of ice water when I get crazy and emotional. Like a slap in the face kind of method to cure my insanity. That's brilliant! Yes, when I'm curled up on the couch in my jammies with my blankie crying into a pillow or screaming at inanimate objects for no particular reason what-so-ever, I'll just stop what I'm doing, go to the kitchen, pull out the bucket of ice from my ice maker, turn the cold water on and stand there patiently waiting for the sink to fill up. Then, when it's full, I'll stick my face in. Oh but wait, I have to make sure I have a timer too. Apparently it's very important to not do it for longer than 30 seconds. I have to set the timer on my microwave for 30 seconds, then stick my face in the sink full of ice water. And...AMAZING, I'm amazed, it's absolutely miraculous...I'm cured! Why didn't I think of that? NOT!

Any other ideas?

Now that I'm done ranting, here is my progress on my daily goals:

1. Water....nope :(

2. Exercise....nope :(

I feel the need to explain just a little so you know I'm not just slacking. I was suppose to meet a friend after work for a bit of tennis fun. But, it had been raining all day and the wind was crazy. I went to the courts and there were puddles so we decided to call it off for the day and try again tomorrow. Then I had another friend at the gym that I was going to meet for a class but traffic getting there was horrible so I didn't make it in time for the class. So I decided to just go home and get some stuff done with the full intention of going to the evening yoga class with my favorite "hot (as in smokin') yoga lady" instructor. Then, I found out that my husband had sold our truck and he needed me to sign the title. The new owner was going to be coming over to pick it up that very evening and my husband wasn't going to be there so I needed to hang out at home and wait for this new owner. Just so happened that they didn't show up until 10 mins after the yoga class started. By then it was 8:10. So much for exercise. How can three, 1....2....3.....exercise plans fall through in one day. So stupid and frustrating.

3. Blog....yup :)

4. Track diet and exercise....yup. Even without the exercise, I still had a deficit of 300 calories for the day so it's not a total loss.

5. Eat 3 squares and a snack...yup :)

Here's to a fresh new day tomorrow. Night.