Weigh In Day #8

167.8 and 37.9% body fat



Last week: 170 and 38.15% body fat



I lost 2.2 lbs this week. Yay!!!! And I'm in the 160s. Yay!!!! And yesterday, I bought a couple new things to wear. My gym pants keep falling down when I jump and run so I bought a new pair. Size Medium! Yay!!!! I showed you my belt the other day. Well the pants that I was wearing are a size 15. I bought a size 12 yesterday and they fit. Yay!!!! Oh my gosh, it feels so good.



The results are all wonderful of course. But I think what feels the best is the emotional and mental stuff. I'm not crazy obsessed about what I'm eating or how hard I'm working out. I'm tracking but it's not chaotic. I don't feel like that's the right word to describe what I mean but I can't get the right word in my head. In the past, I've felt frantic and obsessive about every tiny detail and I've had tons of rules for myself. Rules like no food of any kind after 7pm no matter what, and no refined white sugar no matter what, and no alcohol of any kind no matter what, no sweets of any kind no matter what, no... You get the idea right?

I really feel like I'm doing all the right stuff and I'm doing it in all the right ways. My body is responding, the scale is responding, my mind is responding, my mood and emotions are improved. My friends and family that have known me for years are noticing the difference in me. Yes, I've gotten irritable and I've gotten a little snotty here and there and I've been a little sarcastic at times. I'm not a freakin' saint. But I don't dwell on the negatives very long anymore. I move through it really quickly and am much better at standing back and seeing myself how I imagine the rest of the world sees me. And I'm actually taking time to smell the proverbial flowers. It's amazing.

I watch what I eat but I'm not making silly rules for myself. I'm tracking my calories but I'm not obsessing over it. I exercise regularly but I'm not insisting on burning a certain number of calories every day. I'm doing my regular daily success activities for the most part and I'm not beating myself up for missing one. Last week, I didn't practice my guitar at all. I picked it up this morning to see how bad I am before I went to my lesson. It sucked because I hate going in there feeling like I'm wasting my time and my instructor's. So, I messed up. Oh well. Life goes on. I'm just going to do better this week because I like how it makes me feel. Same is true for the eating and the tracking and the exercise and the water and the vitamins and the reading and the writing. I'm not doing any of them because I feel like I have to. I really truly WANT to because each and every one of them makes me feel good.

I really think one thing that is helping me too is visualizing. I'm spending some good time and effort thinking about how I'm going to feel today, tomorrow, next week, next year. I've gone window shopping for clothes and pictured myself trying the cutest items on and twirling in front of the mirror in that silly giddy way when you feel princess pretty. I was looking at lingerie and thinking about how good it felt to surprise my husband with it. I was actually almost in tears in the store looking at these things because it felt SOOOOO good, imagining the entire process from shopping and trying on, to paying for my selection, packing it home and hiding it somewhere so it wouldn't be found, digging it out and putting it on for my husband and looking at myself in the mirror and being so ridiculously proud of what I have accomplished. Of course, none of this has happened yet but standing in the store in front of the pretty red teddy and feeling what I was feeling made it real, if even just for the moment. Now I know how great it's going to be when I get to walk through that experience for real. I can't wait.

I can't say enough about how powerful the gratitude stuff is either. It is without a doubt the difference between having a good day and a not so good day. I realize half way through the day if I've forgotten to do it. It's obvious. I'm on 8 weeks of consistent actions and tracking and 8 weeks of consistent success. Something's gotta be right here.

Thank you so much to everyone out there that reads and comments too. I look forward to hearing from you every day. It really helps to feel like I'm not alone in this. I love celebrating your successes and offering any kind of encouragement during your struggles.

K...I've got more to say but I think I'll save it till tomorrow. Hope you all had a fantastic weekend. Here's to a whole new week and all new opportunities waiting for us.