Well if I must.
My Goals
- ACSM stuff is coming along I guess. I'm just not having any fun studying this stuff. It's so dry and dull and boring. I thought I'd get to a point where it just grabs my attention and I start loving it and that's just not happening. I found business school more interesting than this. What's that about? 2 weeks to test day. God I hope I pass.
- House stuff still hasn't been started. So many other things to do. I doubt I'll have it done by the end of next week either because I'm cramming for the ACSM stuff. Way to manage my time, huh?
- Daily actions are some good some not so good. You know...it's a process. I will say that the diet and exercise and tracking have all be fantastic but the rest has taken turns coming and going.
- 5K. Two thumbs down. I've pretty much abandoned this one. I'm just not a runner I don't think. Perhaps I'll try again another time. Damn it, that pisses me off something serious. That's bullshit. I'm going for a run/walk/jog tomorrow morning.
- Losing 1lb/week is not so hot either. This sucks. I'm feeling like more and more of a failure with every number here. I'm working out, eating right, tracking, blah blah blah. Shit keeps getting in the way. 3week long migraine didn't help matters followed by a cold for another week.
- 4week challenge. Done
- Skiing. I did this one. Well, kind of. Saturday last week, hubby and I went up to Stevens Pass. I rented gear from Sports Authority and took it up there. When we got there and I put it all on, I was able to stand up for about 10 mins before both my calfs started cramping and both my feet went completely numb. Pain! I sat in the snow wanting nothing more than to take them off and walk around barefoot. So....I ended up spending 7 hours sitting in the lodge drinking coffee waiting for hubby to be done with all the fun and excitement. Skiing sucked ass for me! I had my skies on long enough to snow plow down a tiny little hill one time. Oh boy!
- Nephew. NOPE.
- Pasta. Done.
- Yard. I'm doing that this weekend. It's suppose to be gorgeous weather so I'm spending it outside digging in the dirt. Can't wait.
Secret about me.
I envy people who have the discipline and interest to dedicate themselves to doing one thing well throughout their lives.
I watch my guitar instructor play and he amazes me. I love how he plays. I wish I could do it. Then I see people take beautiful pictures and wish I could do it. I watch my husband draw and I wish I could do it. I hear people sing and I wish I could do it. I read books that inspire and entertain me with their beautiful words and I wish I could do it. I go roller skating and see people doing all kinds of tricks and stuff and I wish I could do it. The list goes on and on.
Then I realize something. I realize that each of the people who do those things as well as they do have probably been doing them their entire lives. They pick one thing and dedicate themselves to it completely. As smart and as capable as I am of doing any of those things or others, I choose to do lots of things so I never become an expert in any of them. I just can't hold my attention to one particular thing long enough to reach that level of performance that I envy.
The good thing about how I approach my life is that I get to do lots of things. I'm an explorer, an adventurer, I love new and different experiences which is exciting and fun and interesting.
The down side is that I don't have one particular thing that I call my own. I don't have any talent that makes me shine.
What is your talent? What makes you shine?
