Weigh in Day #32

I swear, this battle with my scale is going to drive me freakin' crazy. 32 Weeks and 19 lbs. That is an average of .6 lbs each week. That's bullshit! And....no movement in the past 3 weeks. Again! AGAIN!. Deja vous. I've been through this before. Last time, I blamed it on stress and I think I was pretty accurate to do so. Last week, I attempted the same. Stress has been prevalent in my life in the past couple few weeks so obviously it's an easy target right? Wrong! I'm managing my stress really well this last week and still the stupid scale hasn't budged. It did tease me a bit yesterday by teetering between 160.0 and 160.4 before finally resting on the 160.4.

The truth of what I think is happening? Well, I think it's probably a combination of 3 things. See if you can guess what they are....

1. Stress
2. Quality of my calories
3. Period time

If I've learned anything about my body in this past 32 weeks, I've learned that she is NOT forgiving. Not forgiving if I stress out for one day. Not forgiving if I eat a couple slices of pizza. Not forgiving if I skip a workout. She's a hardass is what she is! And bless her for that! She keeps me on my toes for sure. Nothing comes easy. Sometimes that really gets me frustrated when I see people do next to nothing and show a 3lb loss in one week when I spend hours in the gym and meticulously count every calorie to get what seems like nothing for it. I know I'm doing the right things and I know I'm doing it all in the right ways and I know I'm going to have lasting results and all the happy shit but it's still really frustrating at times.

The truth is I hate having to work harder than everyone else for less result ALL THE TIME. Sometimes, I'd just like to have things happen for me without having to fight so damn hard for it all the time. Just a little break, every once in a while. That's all. I don't want a silver platter delivery service or anything, just a little break. Some good luck to fall in my lap.


Dear Universe,
Do you think you could give me a little break every once in a while? Some ideas for you in case you feel so obliged to accomodate: 1. Send me a huge check in the mail. Once that's totally legit with no silly strings attached or a return address from Nigeria. Or, perhaps a new job that pays me twice as much as I make now. Either is fine with me. 2. Send someone to offer to buy my house for more than it's worth. Again, no scams please. 3. Have a little chat with my scale and let her know that she's really starting to piss me off and it would be wonderful of her to cooperate with me from now on.

Yours Truly,
Salina



You know, I looked at my tracking spreadsheet and guess what I found:

From April 4th to May 1st, I had a total calorie deficit of 19,317 calories. My weight actually stayed exactly the same for 3 weeks in a row. Then it dropped by about 4lbs all at once. And since then, my calorie deficit has been 10,998 calories but my weight has actually net increased by .6 lbs.

Makes me wonder if 4lbs will just miraculously fall off next week at weigh in, aye?

The good  news in all of this is that I also did my measurements. Those are showing some progress even if the scale isn't. I lost everywhere except my chest and my abs. Hmmmmm....wonder why. Period time maybe.

Moving forward, I'm just going to keep trying to manage my stress and chill out. I'm also paying much closer attention to the quality of calories instead of just the count. Hopefully, that should do the trick.